I really don't have anything nice to say for March, this month has been an absolute nightmare at work. It is the appraisal month and things really came to a head with that asshole manager of mine. Oh yeah.... Absolute asshole... Her appraisal of me was extremely subjective, she completely ignored the factors that resulted in delays on one of my KPI. And she decided I did not meet expectations because I couldn't give a presentation that summarizes the as-is and to-be plan for data and file archival. I'm so incensed... It's not the presentation that matters but what I do on the ground that matters, to ensure the system does not come to a stop, which I do constantly. I was essentially trying to fix the mess caused by another witch in a different department. Despite all my efforts to fight fire she decided to give me a "Partially Meets Expectation" which is extremely unfair. However I decided not to challenge her judgement anymore and just take myself out of ONE for good. I know that she doesn't like me and she has to probably promote another asshole to manager. The amazing thing is, I've informed her boss of my issues with her but I don't see any improvements and instead see myself getting pushed further into a corner. And as my friend said, the longer I stay in the team, the dumber I'll look, which I really agree, but I can't do anything about it....
I'm angry. Really angry. Unfortunately I still need this job. If any, I have been searching for new roles with renewed fervent and resolve. As if the appraisal insult was not enough, a friend told me of another incident when she claimed I talked like some boss in a meeting. I thought I was asking a normal question to one of her initiatives and just want the issue clarified, I didn't know she took offense at that question. The funny thing is, she and another witch are allowed to criticize and comment on other people's presentations but apparently I cannot? Oh god.... Who the hell do they think they are? And yes, I'm a boss, a boss of 78 people in Batam too. She and that witch can jolly well go to hell for all I care.
I've been sending out applications diligently on every weeknights now, aiming to send at least 1 application per night. It has been tough with 2 rejections that came my way so far. I really can't wait to just go for interviews already and leave this friggin' hellhole called ONE Force Product team.
At least at the start of this month, I did things out of the ordinary by attending a Product Owner training in the company's tech sister company.
It was a good break from the usual crap I have to face in office where we used Lego building to understand the principles of Agile, which not that I need since I'm already well aware, but I just need the break.
This month we also visited The Weave mall in Sentosa where after trying Mensho X we went on to try Homm's desserts. Mensho was nice but overpriced and still can't beat Marutama. It was nice trying something different, but we'll return to Marutama for sure rather than Mensho.
My in-laws also came for a visit during the Idul Fitri holidays, so the missus was busy accompanying them most of the time. I would have been a better host if I hadn't been facing the issues at work which really disturbed me.
Come April, I will be made to report to the youngest person in the team, holding the title I've been coveting for long. But really, what I want is out of the f💣k💀ng "team". I'm really disgusted at that wench and her clique.
God... I've never treated anyone in my life the way she treated me... I just don't know what did I do to deserve this. I really, really just want to move out already. My resolve has never been stronger than now to leave ONE. There were times I just wanted to scream or cry. But I just couldn't.
On one of these depressing March mornings I came across Drive Green Highway, so far away from Pasir Panjang terminal. It is a livery that brought back so many good memories. Ever since I left "K" Line I've never met any kind people.... I really wish my luck would take a turn for the better soon. I'm really wishing April will bring me good news that I've longed for.
~Photos Taken With Samsung Galaxy S23+~
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