April has mostly been difficult. I think the biggest thing that happened this month is that the missus got let go by her company just this Monday. It took a while for her to process the news and I did my best to comfort her. Just earlier this afternoon we went to her office to clean up her cubicle.
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| Me and Lindsay Cleaning The Missus' Cubicle - iPhone 13 |
This month has been a lot of things. Chinese New Year, Lindsay's birthday, my wedding anniversary, an old hand returning to deck at work and yet still no change to my working conditions...... Where the f*ck should I start....
So there's Chinese New Year.. this year we travelled all the way to Klaten via Yogyakarta on the first day of Chinese New Year, right after reunion dinner on the night prior. I dreaded the flight in the packed and cramped Air Asia jet, and true enough, I panicked moments after boarding when I saw people streaming in and filling up the seats one by one, I felt boxed in and my heart started racing until I had to take a 5 mg Xanax pill which I fortunately had prepared along with 2 cans of mints. I really hated that flight, no way I'm going to fly on Air Asia again for sure. The thing that I really hate about this is how my wife is taking my panic attack very lightly, just saying "I have to resist it". If only resisting is as easy as her words... Ironically, I made this trip only at her behest and yet I can't help but feel neglected by her and even frustrated by her lack of empathy.
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| Onboard The Claustrophobic Air Asia Flight, After I Took My Xanax - Galaxy S23+ |
