Another Agonizing August

August has been another exhausting month.  Lincoln's citizenship appeal by the MP was rejected, next week we'll see the MP again to see what they can recommend.  I really don't understand ICA, the boy was born here, lived here all his life and they still won't accept his application.  There have been various information, such as having to apply as a family, him having to volunteer at some charitable organisations, etc.  In any case we just have to try again because I think if he were to use his 'O' level results in his fresh application his chances will get worse.  

Just today I feel so dejected looking at how my children simply have no desire to be serious in their studies.  Even Lindsay's grades are dropping because she's now choosing to spend more time on her PLD and the missus' computer while Lincoln has been his usual nonchalant self.  I feel like I'm the only one who's putting my 100% into supporting this family while everyone else just take me for granted.  I wonder why am I holding on to that stinking job that consumes me if I'm not even appreciated in this family.

Dinner With The Kids at Shake Shack - Galaxy S26 Ultra

Jittery July

July has been another whirlwind.  I officially started the knowledge transfer from the existing PO and completed it before the end of the month.  However I feel that I'm still not ready to lead the discussions with the Scrum teams.  I'm quite afraid actually, the Scrum teams look more experienced than me in terms of using the system, and here I am the "product owner" who's supposed to tell them how to do things.  I'm attached to a mentor, who's somehow changing the designs made by the Scrum teams resulting in them having to redo the estimates and some of the development.  On the other hand, that asshole witch manager is not releasing me until 1st October, I really don't know why she has to make life hard for me by making me double cap for so long.  And seeing her take another product from the core business system really sickens me, I can't understand why such a vile person can be given so much power and influence.  When I checked my boot licker team mate's calendar I was surprised to see a "team bonding" organized by that witch.  I guess, she has her toxic clique set up already.  Disgusting people....

Waiting For The Missus to Pick Me Up - Galaxy S26 Ultra

Juggling June

June has been a mixed bag of sorts.  On the work front, I somehow got my wish to be transferred out.  I will become a full PO for one of ONE's core business system's module dealing with Demurrage & Detention.  While this is the exit I've been looking for in a long time, I'm quite apprehensive approaching this role.  Because so far I've never taken up full PO responsibilities, so I'm adjusting to a new role that seems to need me to be in the centre stage; something an introvert like me is quite uncomfortable with.  What I really want is actually to be a data analyst or AI engineer.  But by some dumb luck, I'll be reunited with an ex-colleague who's now working with the vendor.  I feel like the heavens designed this encounter in one way or another, but I'm not sure what will come out of it.  I'm a mixed bag of relief, apprehension and hope.

Beautiful Sunset to Start June - Galaxy S26 Ultra

Muted May

This has been a quiet month.  I got myself busy with vibe coding.  My first project was to automate my ServiceNow ticket tracking using Gemini.  I used Gemini to generate java scripts that scan my mail inbox for mails from ServiceNow, check my tracker if they already exist.  If the ticket already exists, the script will use Gemini to summarize the content and update the records.  If the ticket is new, it will create a new entry in my tracker.  There's still some issues with new tickets, so the process is semi-automated.  But man...  it reduces my workload a lot.  This particular task that could take anywhere between 15 to 20 hours a week now takes an hour a day.  And I only need to pay about S$6 to save myself 40 to 60 hours a month.  I was so frustrated when the asshole manager told me ticket tracking will be removed from my 2026 KPI, but apparently I'm still the one conducting weekly calls with the team in Vietnam.  Since they're looking for ways to fail me, I have to step up my game too against these assholes.

Took a Detour to Jewel Yesterday For a Korean Dinner - Galaxy S26 Ultra

Agonizing April

This month has been an absolute nightmare on the work front.  That asshole manager's rating materialized in a performance bonus of only 0.6 months and a 1.3% salary increment.  That "bonus" couldn't even pay for my income tax in full.  I'm so incensed beyond what words can describe.  3 of my colleagues got 2 months bonus, 1 guy who hasn't completed a year got 1 month, pro rated.  Mine has to be the lowest around.  God.... that witch really must die, I curse her, to not have peacefuls days, months and years for as long as she lives!  That's how angry I am, and how much I hate her and her f☠c🗡ing cronies. 

I Hate This Cursed Team - Galaxy S23+

Mauled March

I really don't have anything nice to say for March, this month has been an absolute nightmare at work.  It is the appraisal month and things really came to a head with that asshole manager of mine.  Oh yeah....  Absolute asshole...  Her appraisal of me was extremely subjective, she completely ignored the factors that resulted in delays on one of my KPI.  And she decided I did not meet expectations because I couldn't give a presentation that summarizes the as-is and to-be plan for data and file archival.  I'm so incensed...  It's not the presentation that matters but what I do on the ground that matters, to ensure the system does not come to a stop, which I do constantly.  I was essentially trying to fix the mess caused by another witch in a different department.  Despite all my efforts to fight fire she decided to give me a "Partially Meets Expectation" which is extremely unfair.  However I decided not to challenge her judgement anymore and just take myself out of ONE for good.  I know that she doesn't like me and she has to probably promote another asshole to manager.  The amazing thing is, I've informed her boss of my issues with her but I don't see any improvements and instead see myself getting pushed further into a corner.  And as my friend said, the longer I stay in the team, the dumber I'll look, which I really agree, but I can't do anything about it....