Mad March

Oh yeah, the pressure's going up this month for sure.  I've been so busy at work that I have been working on Sundays for about 4 hours just to catch up.  I really hate this month... So the SAP, Salesforce & in-house ONE Finance integration project has started in full swing and it's really making life a living hell for me.  The SAP part which is the backbone of the project is not even fully implemented yet, the end users don't have a picture of how they'll do things and we have to design our new module without a clear picture of the use cases and processes.  The ONE Finance API is also still in development, which means we can't do any testing or have a clear picture of how the products interact with each other until the API development is completed in mid-April.  

Crimson March Moon - Galaxy S23+

Farcical February

This month has been a lot of things.  Chinese New Year, Lindsay's birthday, my wedding anniversary, an old hand returning to deck at work and yet still no change to my working conditions...... Where the f*ck should I start....

So there's Chinese New Year..  this year we travelled all the way to Klaten via Yogyakarta on the first day of Chinese New Year, right after reunion dinner on the night prior.  I dreaded the flight in the packed and cramped Air Asia jet, and true enough, I panicked moments after boarding when I saw people streaming in and filling up the seats one by one, I felt boxed in and my heart started racing until I had to take a 5 mg Xanax pill which I fortunately had prepared along with 2 cans of mints.  I really hated that flight, no way I'm going to fly on Air Asia again for sure.  The thing that I really hate about this is how my wife is taking my panic attack very lightly, just saying "I have to resist it".  If only resisting is as easy as her words...  Ironically, I made this trip only at her behest and yet I can't help but feel neglected by her and even frustrated by her lack of empathy.

Onboard The Claustrophobic Air Asia Flight, After I Took My Xanax - Galaxy S23+

Jabroni January

So here I am towards the end of January.  It has been a busy month, which is very surprising for a start of the year.  But then again.......  This is how my department works.  1 person has left today and another will be transferring to another department in April.  These says a lot about how bad things are in my department.

Cowabunga! - Galaxy S23+

Delightful December

In less than half an hour, 2023 will come to an end.  This December has been delightful for a number of reasons, the main one being that I spent the first 2 weeks of the month on my Japan vacation.  It is a long overdue vacation since 2019, so I made sure to make this trip well it's worth.  We travelled across Tokyo, Kawaguchiko, Kyoto, Osaka & Karuizawa before finally ending the trip with a bang in Tokyo Disneyland & Tokyo Disneysea. 

Waiting to Board Our Flight - Galaxy S23+

Nefarious November

Yes...  This has been an extremely wicked month where work is concerned.  This particular "team mate" of mine is really an asshole, and that's putting it mildly.  There was an instance when the overwhelming colleague (who made me got my chest tightness in our meeting last month) reached out from a JIRA story complaining about a feature that was supposed to have been deployed on the previous week but was nowhere to be found.  And this "team mate" of mine left a scorching remarks in the JIRA thread that really made my blood boil.  Turned out, the enhancement was overwritten by a deployment that made it gone missing.

What An Asshole - Galaxy S23+

Opaque October

I felt like October just whizzed past me.  So many things happened over a span of less than 31 days.  Work has been unforgiving as usual.  I'm strongly considering to ask for an internal transfer as soon as I'm eligible because I really cannot stand the pace and an ambitious team mate who's willing to make me look bad so that he can get ahead.  There's also this other colleague who's so stubborn, sitting with him for a meeting earlier this month almost triggered my panic attack again.  It was a sensation that I haven't felt in a while but suddenly returned this month.  I guess I have been quite stressed out at work.  I have finished almost 24 muscle relaxant pills this month.....  That's how difficult this month has been... 

Waiting to See The Doctor - Galaxy S23+